Thursday, October 25, 2007
Today is about..
me. Yes today's post is on me.
Alter Ego - It is a second self within a person.
What happens if theres more than one? What do we call it then? To tell the truth, i think that there are 3 different ways i behave and what do you think they are? Well here's what i think is going on.
Who ever came out first i have no idea, but anyway here goes.
Nathaniel
"The thinker"
Yes im a thinker.
I do lots of thinking and wonder about the mysteries of the universe. I debate with myself over various issues that are going on and can get carried away leading me to be silent. Each day as i walk home from anywhere, i start to think about issues ranging from The meaning of life to self reflection. Some times i get caught up in my own thoughts that i may not strike up any conversation with anyone at all. Unless spoken to of course.
On first impressions, im usually present and people MAY think that im the quiet type (usually happens when im meeting a bunch of new people for the first time). People may see me as a cold person and kind of how would i put it, "Dao".
However i am merely just observing each of the people's interests and actions. After being certain of how a person is like, only then do i start speaking up. Be it nonsense or facts, i become more... friendly.
I am choosy over who i want to meet. Only if a person is of a certain interest to me then i would start conversing. Be it sharing the same interest or for another reason, i would create a conversation out of nothing and whether i like it or not, i would force myself to make friends. This is the only difficult part about making friends with me, if im not interested, i couldnt really be bothered, thus ive met many acquaintances but never made new friends.
Ming Kong
"The Beng"
Derived from my Chinese name, this dude has been around when i entered Poly. In order to adapt to the change circle of friends who wasnt an English speaking group, this just poped up. Even though my command of Chinese was not say close to average, i started conversing in mandarin.
In Poly year 1, i hung out with my class mates almost everyday and unfortunately for me they were of the mandarin speaking side. Though a bit of English was thrown in here and there, it was never sufficient enough and a new personality was created. Outspoken and loud. Being relatively new to the Chinese clique i just tagged along with most of the activities and suggested little. This was due to the conflicting events that was wanted.
E.G I wanted to watch a certain movie however the rest of them wanted to watch another movie. Different interests, different ideals however same interests in horsing around and having fun.
Tried many new and different things, being adventurous to try out another life style. It was responsible for this.
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Well, i can say that it was a fun time, going out every single day. It was here that i went to KBox a number of times. Though i cant sing at all due to my weird Chinese accent, i usually just go in and eat the nuts. However there was just once (or maybe twice) that i actually sang something.
It was a Jacky Cheung song that my dad used to sing on the Karaoke Laser Disc that ive heard countless times due to wanting to play my console game and thus i had to wait. He tried to master the song and sang it countless times.
I know i cant sing. Or at least i dont want to try. Thus im a musician, see the instrument behind? (This sentence applies to every part of me.)
So im created just to fit in with the rest more. With poor and broken Chinese, i try my best.
Nut
"The Crazed"
Do first, resolve later. Diving into things head first without looking back. Well i would have done so if i didnt have such a big conscience and "The Thinker" thinking as i perform the task.
Will basically do anything. Loud, outspoken and has the tendency to "suan" people. Its like an automatic reaction, i just go off saying what i say and think later "Man thats funny. But less points scored with so and so". Thus the thinker helps out by performing some action/comment that will bring back some points with that person i just "suan-ed".
Speaks to all, new and old friends, doesnt matter if i actually remember their names/faces as long as i pretend to know their names. Then when i meet them later on again id go "Sup" and walk away. I never forget a face, only names.
Probably spawned from the times of M1 where i had to talk to various and random people about their contracts and stuff. Though i didnt want to, i still had to as it was my job.
Used this to fit into MIT club after observing how it works. Usually plays along with crazy stunts/events and thus ending up like such.
This was taken on the SMIT LTC recce. I still remember, was abit angry with some turn of events and eventually channeled my anger to become crazy that day.
Fast talking fast moving and fast thinking, probably gets me into trouble but at the same time, gets me out of it. Most friendly looking on the outside.
That roughly concludes the 3 splits that are involved. All three are usually present most of the time and constantly disagrees with each other leaving the body not know what to do until one of the egos has dominated.
and usually the one with the conscience dominates, leaving me guilty for whatever ive done.
On the more important subjects, the thinker is put into place contemplating the possible outcomes but a solution to the problem is never always around, leaving me to think for days.
I have a problem with trust. I never trust many people, as humans lie. Im not perfect either. If you dont trust me as much as i dont trust the general public, i dont blame you, for all humans lie.
I just live on one thing - being happy. Almost half of America is on prozec (the happy pill), shows how depressing the world is.
Thats why i look for the things that make me happy.
Make a guess, who/where/what makes me happy.
"In the long view of history, what difference will any of our lives make? The true measure of a life is not how many people know our names when we die... but whether we touch the lives of others."
Alter Ego - It is a second self within a person.
What happens if theres more than one? What do we call it then? To tell the truth, i think that there are 3 different ways i behave and what do you think they are? Well here's what i think is going on.
Who ever came out first i have no idea, but anyway here goes.
Nathaniel
"The thinker"
Yes im a thinker.
I do lots of thinking and wonder about the mysteries of the universe. I debate with myself over various issues that are going on and can get carried away leading me to be silent. Each day as i walk home from anywhere, i start to think about issues ranging from The meaning of life to self reflection. Some times i get caught up in my own thoughts that i may not strike up any conversation with anyone at all. Unless spoken to of course.
On first impressions, im usually present and people MAY think that im the quiet type (usually happens when im meeting a bunch of new people for the first time). People may see me as a cold person and kind of how would i put it, "Dao".
However i am merely just observing each of the people's interests and actions. After being certain of how a person is like, only then do i start speaking up. Be it nonsense or facts, i become more... friendly.
I am choosy over who i want to meet. Only if a person is of a certain interest to me then i would start conversing. Be it sharing the same interest or for another reason, i would create a conversation out of nothing and whether i like it or not, i would force myself to make friends. This is the only difficult part about making friends with me, if im not interested, i couldnt really be bothered, thus ive met many acquaintances but never made new friends.
Ming Kong
"The Beng"
Derived from my Chinese name, this dude has been around when i entered Poly. In order to adapt to the change circle of friends who wasnt an English speaking group, this just poped up. Even though my command of Chinese was not say close to average, i started conversing in mandarin.
In Poly year 1, i hung out with my class mates almost everyday and unfortunately for me they were of the mandarin speaking side. Though a bit of English was thrown in here and there, it was never sufficient enough and a new personality was created. Outspoken and loud. Being relatively new to the Chinese clique i just tagged along with most of the activities and suggested little. This was due to the conflicting events that was wanted.
E.G I wanted to watch a certain movie however the rest of them wanted to watch another movie. Different interests, different ideals however same interests in horsing around and having fun.
Tried many new and different things, being adventurous to try out another life style. It was responsible for this.
.jpg)
Well, i can say that it was a fun time, going out every single day. It was here that i went to KBox a number of times. Though i cant sing at all due to my weird Chinese accent, i usually just go in and eat the nuts. However there was just once (or maybe twice) that i actually sang something.
It was a Jacky Cheung song that my dad used to sing on the Karaoke Laser Disc that ive heard countless times due to wanting to play my console game and thus i had to wait. He tried to master the song and sang it countless times.
I know i cant sing. Or at least i dont want to try. Thus im a musician, see the instrument behind? (This sentence applies to every part of me.)
So im created just to fit in with the rest more. With poor and broken Chinese, i try my best.
Nut
"The Crazed"
Do first, resolve later. Diving into things head first without looking back. Well i would have done so if i didnt have such a big conscience and "The Thinker" thinking as i perform the task.
Will basically do anything. Loud, outspoken and has the tendency to "suan" people. Its like an automatic reaction, i just go off saying what i say and think later "Man thats funny. But less points scored with so and so". Thus the thinker helps out by performing some action/comment that will bring back some points with that person i just "suan-ed".
Speaks to all, new and old friends, doesnt matter if i actually remember their names/faces as long as i pretend to know their names. Then when i meet them later on again id go "Sup" and walk away. I never forget a face, only names.
Probably spawned from the times of M1 where i had to talk to various and random people about their contracts and stuff. Though i didnt want to, i still had to as it was my job.
Used this to fit into MIT club after observing how it works. Usually plays along with crazy stunts/events and thus ending up like such.
This was taken on the SMIT LTC recce. I still remember, was abit angry with some turn of events and eventually channeled my anger to become crazy that day.
Fast talking fast moving and fast thinking, probably gets me into trouble but at the same time, gets me out of it. Most friendly looking on the outside.
That roughly concludes the 3 splits that are involved. All three are usually present most of the time and constantly disagrees with each other leaving the body not know what to do until one of the egos has dominated.
and usually the one with the conscience dominates, leaving me guilty for whatever ive done.
On the more important subjects, the thinker is put into place contemplating the possible outcomes but a solution to the problem is never always around, leaving me to think for days.
I have a problem with trust. I never trust many people, as humans lie. Im not perfect either. If you dont trust me as much as i dont trust the general public, i dont blame you, for all humans lie.
I just live on one thing - being happy. Almost half of America is on prozec (the happy pill), shows how depressing the world is.
Thats why i look for the things that make me happy.
Make a guess, who/where/what makes me happy.
"In the long view of history, what difference will any of our lives make? The true measure of a life is not how many people know our names when we die... but whether we touch the lives of others."
