Saturday, March 03, 2007
Aftermath
MIT yr 2 Chalet just ended. (Dont ask me why its year 2 only, i have no idea =) )
Or rather it ended on thursday morning. Now my sleep cycle is screwed.
The chalet ended with 75% of the people getting sick. I wonder why, suddenly all of them fell sick like the plague has struck. Anyway 75% of the chalet time was spent on gambling due to the heavy rain 24/7. Also the chalet location was in some ulu location thus making it hard to find entertainment. Anyhoo, i gambled back the cost of the chalet, the mcdonald delivery food money and the money spent on pratas. All i started off was with a borrowed $1 coin =). Heck i could have gone for more, but im happy enough with breaking even. Greed kills, i was taught.
What amazes me is how can one person sleep for almost 24 hours at the chalet, then go home and sleep somemore. Sleeping 24 hours in one shot is amazing enough but then going home to sleep somemore? Strange
So now its 4am and im wide awake.
Ive been thinking.
I have been turning my back on many things. Looking back, it disgusts me. It may be a quick solution to most of the problems but not an advised one. It may hurt the people affected by the problem. Ive hurt several people previously and i start to wonder, is the easy solution worth a friendship?
Maybe its pride holding me back from fixing stuff, yet again maybe its fear. Fear of the unknown. I cant see any possible outcomes, or solutions to the problem. I have no idea on how to approach this.
This is where my laziness comes into play. Thus i cant be bothered to patch things up. For the past 2-4 years, any wrong doings i have done, may have been forgotten but i have this ability to remember random events that cause me to feel guilty. Or i just have a slow ass conscience.
If only these people could tell me what to do to get back whatever is left of a friendship.
Oh yes and i am craving for seafood.
There a full fledge post. Im logging now, later
Or rather it ended on thursday morning. Now my sleep cycle is screwed.
The chalet ended with 75% of the people getting sick. I wonder why, suddenly all of them fell sick like the plague has struck. Anyway 75% of the chalet time was spent on gambling due to the heavy rain 24/7. Also the chalet location was in some ulu location thus making it hard to find entertainment. Anyhoo, i gambled back the cost of the chalet, the mcdonald delivery food money and the money spent on pratas. All i started off was with a borrowed $1 coin =). Heck i could have gone for more, but im happy enough with breaking even. Greed kills, i was taught.
What amazes me is how can one person sleep for almost 24 hours at the chalet, then go home and sleep somemore. Sleeping 24 hours in one shot is amazing enough but then going home to sleep somemore? Strange
So now its 4am and im wide awake.
Ive been thinking.
I have been turning my back on many things. Looking back, it disgusts me. It may be a quick solution to most of the problems but not an advised one. It may hurt the people affected by the problem. Ive hurt several people previously and i start to wonder, is the easy solution worth a friendship?
Maybe its pride holding me back from fixing stuff, yet again maybe its fear. Fear of the unknown. I cant see any possible outcomes, or solutions to the problem. I have no idea on how to approach this.
This is where my laziness comes into play. Thus i cant be bothered to patch things up. For the past 2-4 years, any wrong doings i have done, may have been forgotten but i have this ability to remember random events that cause me to feel guilty. Or i just have a slow ass conscience.
If only these people could tell me what to do to get back whatever is left of a friendship.
Oh yes and i am craving for seafood.
There a full fledge post. Im logging now, later
