Wednesday, November 16, 2005
One shot Two shot
Tuesday. Woke up at 815 and slowly walked out at 830 -_-. Went for 2 hours of OPSY of which i listened to only 20 mins max? OPSY-Man (No names , dont want to be sued) said we can only concentrate for 20 mins. Well, i dont know abt that but i wasnt listening.. Maybe thats the only part i listen to for the whole lecture. Then went for DMBS lecture. Amazing, i spent the whole lesson listening.. Lunch then dota... As usual... pwn fugly... Then 1pm and the graphics design class start.. Was lost...very lost...Futhermore YH keep askin stupid things cos he wasnt listening to any part of the lesson at all... Well, thats yh for you, wanna learn but nv listen. Went home after tt and saw paul boardin 106. Talk abit, long time nv see... He's workin as a surveyer and wtf, he earns $16 for each person he surveys. Takes around 30 mins for each survey.. I also wan tt kind of job.. damn. Went home and slack.. Play Ro cos nth to do.. Went in ms see see only.. people shocked to see me..and im shocked tt they never delete me from their user list. Well, played WE9 again.. 5* cos 6* haven unlock.. Turkey win Brazil 2-0. Though Brazil could haf scored like 6 goals -_-...Must work on defence... Well, just taked One, Two shots of vodka.. My bday present from my lil sis... Lucky it was around, need to relax.. Clear my mind, clear it of everything. My mind says clear, my heart differs. Feeling worse and better at the same time. Worse tt i had to drink to feel better. And i know self control, if not id down the whole bottle by now.
Read if u wanna. Whats your view?
There are two ways to look at this. Once is its my fault, for liking people and going for the chances that come. Another from my view, is that Yes, youve done shit that is wronging me. People like you are erratic and sometimes cant put others first. Yes, my actions are like yours, erratic and my thoughts too. BUT look here, dont you see that what your doing is like a bastard? You shot your friend in the back, who looks out for you most of the time. And yet why do i not give a damn about this? Cos i have the ability to forgive. And i choose to use it. The longest ive been pissed at people is 2 odd weeks. Why im writing this? Cos its the only outlet for me to get this off my mind. After all , this are my thoughts. I am half of somethings. Half introvert,half extrovert, half pacifist... you get the point? *shrug* i do.
-Im not needed here, im just a stand in. Why cant you leave my heart, my mind already knows that, but not my heart.-
Read if u wanna. Whats your view?
There are two ways to look at this. Once is its my fault, for liking people and going for the chances that come. Another from my view, is that Yes, youve done shit that is wronging me. People like you are erratic and sometimes cant put others first. Yes, my actions are like yours, erratic and my thoughts too. BUT look here, dont you see that what your doing is like a bastard? You shot your friend in the back, who looks out for you most of the time. And yet why do i not give a damn about this? Cos i have the ability to forgive. And i choose to use it. The longest ive been pissed at people is 2 odd weeks. Why im writing this? Cos its the only outlet for me to get this off my mind. After all , this are my thoughts. I am half of somethings. Half introvert,half extrovert, half pacifist... you get the point? *shrug* i do.
-Im not needed here, im just a stand in. Why cant you leave my heart, my mind already knows that, but not my heart.-
