Nut Says

Stupid gems started at 8am today..Woke up at 6:55 for some apparent reason and went to get ready for school. Left with my sis at 7:30 and its always like this... as soon as i can see the bus stop, i can see the bus 106 pulling in. Happens everyday i go to school, normally i would wait 7 mins for the next bus but my sis who left slightly earlier was running towards the bus.. Oh what the hell, so i ran to the bus too anyway. Seriously unfit and jaded.... how can i exercise when im this tired? Started out a great day today. Did my VB prac early and was listenin to Sonata Artica... i kept tinkin it was too loud and scared that the teacher come kpkb me so i kept pausin half way. Cos i cant hear whats goin on when i put on the earphones. Everything is filtered out. Started out great. Went to lunch at FC4 with half the class o.O? lol.. same crowd except missing some people.. Mark came along with us..Talked so much crap that i feel damn lame..More laughter added to the pile. Then i saw her when goin upstairs and she comin out of the lift. Didnt bother at all... Had 2 hours of crap of "IDEAS".. Drew many many many lines knowing that i cant draw to save my life...Damn these crap modules...wasting my time and money. Then after that while waiting for NETF to start.. Went out to warm up and get some peace. Closed my eyes and almost slept while leaning on the railings. Talked to Aurelia (who kanna thrown to our class for no reason with some other people) for a brief moment, who claims If i jump over she would be happy in a jovial tone. My reply , "Yea i wouldnt mind jumping over, only can u throw me over? i guess no one would mind" in a monotonous tone. Maaaan, the things i say when im half asleep...So far no response from her..Sent her a msg "Wake up" at around 9am to well, wake her up as usual? Dint really expect a reply. Then while talkin crap to Aurelia she came out. Heard her voice as my eyes were closed..I continued to lean on the railings resting..I jus wanted a simple hi, but well now it seems that its all going to a i-duno-wtf-is-going-on-now-and-wtf-do-you-all-want direction..anyhow, was ignored, as if we have never met before and i was jus some person leanin on the railings. Forgive me if i think too much, but what i write here, wont probally come out of my mouth anyway...

Ignored by the one you like, what a feeling.
No matter what anyone does, nothings gonna change if you dont wanna change.
Well i guess, we've come to a point where im no longer existant.
And i assume, we'll remain at that point for its what you want.

- Cant we even be friends again, or is that too much for me to ask? -