Saturday, November 05, 2005
damn nut damn...
First of all, Happy belated Hari raya. Spent Hari raya at home resting and watchin some movies, thats about it. Played an amazing game of dota at nite, almost clear team multiple times usin chaos knight...Too bad the creeps keep blocking me from chasin the naix to clear the team.
Thursday ends with that last dota game.
Friday. I woke up at 7am and went back to slp again till 730am. Rained in the morning and i was sort of freezing in lab T2026? Slow coms with no USB 2.0 ports and the air con was freezing. Spent 1h30m on DBMS pratical of which i listened to only 50-70% of the lesson. Then went for the DBMS lecture of which the lecturer made "friends" with Daryl cos he keep talkin and nt listenin. He tried to make "friend" with me but i guess he cant really hear well. Daryl kept sayin his name many times but he kept askin "Whats your name" lol. Also he asked mine cos i was sittin next to him and fendin off his gay-ism payin only attention to 50-70% of the lesson again. Too bad he couldnt hear me and called me Daniel. Who was sitting beside me too lol. He tried giving examples using 'Daryl' property bein changed to 'Daniel' and for some reason, the class kept laughin...Then went to FC4 for lunch with brandon,wee kwang,daniel,daryl,cj,tc,yong he,fugly and fucker. Then came Mark,bobo and ceed. Split up and me mark and ceed went to the club hse. Kept pushin us to go out and paint sum stupid banner. Went out for 10-15 mins then went back in again. Yea, i would have helped if they asked earlier so i would come in slacker clothes.
After the banner was finished and most of the ppl were in the club, there comes my mask. Bunch of fake smiles and laughter as if nothing happened. But generally im improving, i think? Haven spoken to her for 1.5 weeks already. Not that i dont want to and im unsure if you want to either. Id rather stfu till spoken too then talk to someone who doesnt want to. I dont know what you want but i know what i want. I want you around again. A certain spark is missing now that your gone. But whats the chances of that happening again? How long can this keep up? Each time i walk past without saying a word or look away, im being tormented inside.
Oh well, went to suntec with brandon bobo and lenette to collect her pay then eat dinner... Waited from 6 to 9 pm again.. as usual waiting(btw i went to 1 side cos i was tired not anyin else). Went to eat sum jap/korean/thai resturant then went home by bus, a 1 hr journey cos i walked to bugis.
Yes im used to waiting, and i can wait quite a bit. But i couldnt wait the other time cos it was pain for me. I guess i screwed things up, and i regret it. I regret that i couldnt have been more patient. 2 weeks of uncertainty, felt like i was being played. Thus my actions 2 weeks ago, which led to this. I wonder, if what you said that night was true? And why not earlier? The answer i'll probally wont get is why.
- Im missing you, i wanna know how your doing. I want you around again, for your the spark that lights me up-
Thursday ends with that last dota game.
Friday. I woke up at 7am and went back to slp again till 730am. Rained in the morning and i was sort of freezing in lab T2026? Slow coms with no USB 2.0 ports and the air con was freezing. Spent 1h30m on DBMS pratical of which i listened to only 50-70% of the lesson. Then went for the DBMS lecture of which the lecturer made "friends" with Daryl cos he keep talkin and nt listenin. He tried to make "friend" with me but i guess he cant really hear well. Daryl kept sayin his name many times but he kept askin "Whats your name" lol. Also he asked mine cos i was sittin next to him and fendin off his gay-ism payin only attention to 50-70% of the lesson again. Too bad he couldnt hear me and called me Daniel. Who was sitting beside me too lol. He tried giving examples using 'Daryl' property bein changed to 'Daniel' and for some reason, the class kept laughin...Then went to FC4 for lunch with brandon,wee kwang,daniel,daryl,cj,tc,yong he,fugly and fucker. Then came Mark,bobo and ceed. Split up and me mark and ceed went to the club hse. Kept pushin us to go out and paint sum stupid banner. Went out for 10-15 mins then went back in again. Yea, i would have helped if they asked earlier so i would come in slacker clothes.
After the banner was finished and most of the ppl were in the club, there comes my mask. Bunch of fake smiles and laughter as if nothing happened. But generally im improving, i think? Haven spoken to her for 1.5 weeks already. Not that i dont want to and im unsure if you want to either. Id rather stfu till spoken too then talk to someone who doesnt want to. I dont know what you want but i know what i want. I want you around again. A certain spark is missing now that your gone. But whats the chances of that happening again? How long can this keep up? Each time i walk past without saying a word or look away, im being tormented inside.
Oh well, went to suntec with brandon bobo and lenette to collect her pay then eat dinner... Waited from 6 to 9 pm again.. as usual waiting(btw i went to 1 side cos i was tired not anyin else). Went to eat sum jap/korean/thai resturant then went home by bus, a 1 hr journey cos i walked to bugis.
Yes im used to waiting, and i can wait quite a bit. But i couldnt wait the other time cos it was pain for me. I guess i screwed things up, and i regret it. I regret that i couldnt have been more patient. 2 weeks of uncertainty, felt like i was being played. Thus my actions 2 weeks ago, which led to this. I wonder, if what you said that night was true? And why not earlier? The answer i'll probally wont get is why.
- Im missing you, i wanna know how your doing. I want you around again, for your the spark that lights me up-
